A Client In Love

[Mount N Do]

LOL...but that really is the truth. I love this hobby, but I have no illusions. The one thing I tell friends who are starting this is..."Don't fall in love"

Well count me in as one who ALWAYS thought that the idea of falling in love with a provider was a ridiculous notion. And now I'm one of the statistics. I remain fully cognizant that it would never work for a myriad of reasons. Chief among them is the age difference. But... it happens.

 

And the struggle is real. Truthfully, im agonizing because I've mostly enabled him by providing thousands of dollars a month, often without seeing him. Crazy right? Not sure if that's love or pure insanity. And the agony is cause I'm ready to move on-I think-but not sure what will happen to him. He's young and claims he doesn't get much action escorting.

 

I genuinely care more for him than I believe I love him so I'm having difficulty abandoning the support. At the same time, i need to serve my needs and can't do it when my resources for this hobby are going to a person that ain't always available. I've tried pointing this out to him. He's hopelessly oblivious. But I digress...

 

Any South Florida providers want to distract me? Inquire within.

[SuperJunior]

There are so many different kinds of love (paternal, fraternal, sibling, sexual, etc.) and so many chemicals and circumstances surrounding the damned thing, shouldn't we be happy to love, be loved and be moved by it? I guess in this forum and under its circumstances there should always be an alarm for the "Play Misty For Me" gal, but I got into this to be fooled by your kiss, dammit. I ordered the BFE!

 

[+ nycman]

And now I'm one of the statistics

 

Don't ever be a "statistic".....be you!

 

And the struggle is real

 

Amen, brotha!

 

I've mostly enabled him by providing thousands of dollars a month, often without seeing him.

 

You've identified the problem....that's 1/2 the battle.....

 

Not sure if that's love or pure insanity.

 

When you have to ask.....the answer is always...."pure insanity".

 

He's hopelessly oblivious.

 

No baby,....he's not....but you are.

 

Please take that harsh statement with all the love with which it was intended.

 

You need to cut the cord and move on....for both of you.

[Mo Mason]

I don't think that's insanity at all.

[bigvalboy]

Well count me in as one who ALWAYS thought that the idea of falling in love with a provider was a ridiculous notion. And now I'm one of the statistics. I remain fully cognizant that it would never work for a myriad of reasons. Chief among them is the age difference. But... it happens.

 

And the struggle is real. Truthfully, im agonizing because I've mostly enabled him by providing thousands of dollars a month, often without seeing him. Crazy right? Not sure if that's love or pure insanity. And the agony is cause I'm ready to move on-I think-but not sure what will happen to him. He's young and claims he doesn't get much action escorting.

 

I genuinely care more for him than I believe I love him so I'm having difficulty abandoning the support. At the same time, i need to serve my needs and can't do it when my resources for this hobby are going to a person that ain't always available. I've tried pointing this out to him. He's hopelessly oblivious. But I digress...

 

Any South Florida providers want to distract me? Inquire within.

 

Your honesty is refreshing...Whatever does happen Mount N Do, my only comment would be, not to have any regrets. Take each moment in your life and embrace it. In the end, it is who you are, it's how you've chosen to live your life, and there's nothing wrong with that...Good Luck!

[MikeBiDude]

And the struggle is real. Truthfully, im agonizing because I've mostly enabled him by providing thousands of dollars a month, often without seeing him.

Then same/similar happened to me, so you're not alone.